MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Merry Christmas to all!!!!!! I LOVE CHRISTMAS!
Well, it's Christmas day and presents have been opened. We all ate breakfast as a family and will have our christmas dinner tonight as a family as well. WOO! This includes my brothers that aren't my blood brothers but that we took in (this year it's Jordan and Taylor). I'm excited! I got a lot of Batman stuff (since I'm Batman obsessed), I also got a lot of new clothes and chocolate, along with a line of perfumes from Rue 21. Yay!
Tomorrow after Christmas I am heading off with one of my best friends, my Kelly-Kitten:3 Kelly is a wonderful person and she's taking me to stay with her at her Dad's house in Florida for her Birthday (December 30th) and also for New Years. So after tonight I will not be posting anything till I get back. I will be flying back on January 3rd. Not that anyone reads this anyways, just thought I'd mention it.
I'm super excited to go to Florida. Because 1) I've never been that far East (I grew up in California then moved to Utah, the farthest east I've ever been is Wyoming) 2) I get to spend nine days straight with KELLY! WOO! 3) We're going to Disneyworld and other such amazing places 4) I've always wanted to see Florida 4) My mom's best friend in the entire world lives in Florida, I remember her from when I was a little girl. I think the last time I saw her, I wasn't even a teenager yet, I was probably around ten or eleven. She has a daughter now, the last time I saw her she wasn't even pregnant. Wow, it's been a long time.
I've never been on a plane before, I'm a little scared. I've always driven places, I've never gone anywhere so far that I needed to fly there. AH! It'll be an adventure!


So, yeah. It's day 5 of Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. I know I posted pictures on Day 1 and 3 but since I'll be gone for 10 days, I figured I'd post more. (Mainly because I LOVE taking pictures of myself :D I can't help it, it's my mother in me. She was a model for a short while and I swear I got my love of being photographed from her.) Oh! I forgot to mention when I posted the pictures for Day 3. Ignore the fact that I wear dog collars, it's a long story. I've been wearing them as necklaces since 7th grade, it's kinda my thing. I have multiple collars, two orange, one brown leather, one black, one spiked, one polka dotted. I really only wear my orange and brown leather one now, since they're the only ones I feel comfortable wearing (The others are from ex-boyfriends and friend that are no longer my friends so I don't wear them anymore). So yeah, don't judge me or anything just because I wear dog collars, I quite enjoy and love my collars.

Surprise Birthday Party!

Yesterday was my dearest friend Nick's birthday and birthday party. We went ice skating in Vegas, it was tons of fun. Well, her dad couldn't make it he was working (he's a truck driver). But today he got home so we threw her ANOTHER birthday party but only this time her dad was back. :D It was a surprise party and she was super surprised, she even cried. It was great. It reminded me of when Abi's mom and I threw Abi  a surprise party for her 17th birthday, Abi cried as well. Out of happiness in both cases, of course.
Anyways, the party was super fun. We ate cake, listened to awesome music, played catch phrase, sang songs, played a Michael Jackson dance game, and talked. It was so much fun! Now I'm going to see a movie with her tomorrow morning then do....whatever I guess. Probably pack since I leave for Florida on wednesday. I also need to make or find two more presents before tuesday. So I guess I have to do that tomorrow, haha.
Well, yeah. Today is also Day 3 of Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. Obviously my hair hasn't grown very much. It's only been three days after all. But  I like keeping track, it makes it more fun, like a game. Plus I enjoy pictures and this is a fun excuse to take pictures of myself day after day without seeming too conceited. It also gives me reasons to always have recent pictures of myself. I usually only take pictures when I change my  hair color or style or cut it or something. Now I'll always have recent pictures of myself. I should probably post the stages I'm going for as well. Like stages of hair from where it is now to where I want it to be. So I'll post 3 pictures today. Two of them will be pictures from today of what my hair looks like right now and the third picture is stage one of Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. Once my hair reaches the length of Stage one, then I'll move onto growing it to the length of stage two. Makes it easier so I'm not totally impatient. Instead of thinking immediately from short to long, it'll be from bot short to short. From short to kinda short. From kinda short to middle neck length. From middle neck to shoulder length. From shoulder length to past shoulders. From past shoulders to boobs, to elbows, to waist, or however long I want it to be (probably not that long before I cut it for L.O.L.). Anyways, doing it in stages makes patience A LOT easier. So I'll post the two pics from today and stage one that I'm working towards :3

Me Day 3 Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. <3

 Me on Day 3 Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. <3

 Stage One:

Ice Skating

I have fallen in love with ice skating today! For my friends Nick's birthday we went to Vegas because it has the nearest ice skating rink. We went ice skating for hours and it was amazing. It felt so natural to me. Maybe because I grew up going everywhere on roller blades and we had a roller bladeing rink near where I grew up. Ice skating is very similar to roller blading, ice skating just requires more balance and instead of hitting grass or concrete when you biff it, you hit ice. Anyway, I love and adore it! It was glorious. Now I want to go ice skating all the time. There used to be an ice skating rink here where I live now, it was there for two seasons but I could never go, I never had enough time. Now I really wish I had. Oh well. I hope we get an ice skating rink here again sometime. I would be so very happy :3
Anyways, it's also day 2 of Operation Grow Hair Long for L.O.L. (haha, Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L). I really wish I had long hair while skating because my ears were super cold without hair to cover them, so I wore a beanie, which was cute.

DAY ONE!

OKAY! Freshman year of high school I had hair to my elbows, it was gross because it was unhealthy and I had NO IDEA how to take care of my hair (let alone myself). For my birthday the summer after freshman year, my older brother (C.J.) took me to get my hair cut for Locks of Love, an organization that makes wigs from real hair to cancer patient children. (This means a lot because my mother was diagnosed with brain cancer and lost her hair at one point.) Anyways, it was cut just above the shoulders. Since then: June 3, 2009 my hair has never again reached my shoulders. Since that day it's gotten shorter and shorter. And since Junior year (2011) my hair has never reached past my chin. I've pixie cut it again and again. Every time I try to grow it out it makes it to my chin then I pixie cut it again because I get too impatient with it. Well, not this time. This time I have a reason. I want to donate to Locks of Love again. To do this, I need at very least 13 inches of hair to donate. I finally WILL grow my hair out again. Honestly, I look GREAT with short hair and I only have bad memories of long hair. I'm going to change that. Now that I know how to actually take care of hair and style it and such. YAY! I also color it so I won't have my nasty natural hair color anymore. And dying my hair won't damage my hair anymore since I'll be dying it with henna. I know  I can be patient enough to grow it out if it's for a good cause like Locks of Love again. It'll be interesting. Anyway, today is technically not day one since this was decided a few weeks ago. But I count today as day one so  I have a monthly day to go by. I will be posting pictures to keep it updated and I can go back and look at the progress so I don't feel like I'm getting no where. My hair is almost to my chin, once I get past that it'll be fine until I have to make it past my shoulders (which shouldn't be for a while, although my hair does grow really fast, it still should be a while till we get to that point). So yeah, as of day one, my first challenge will be getting my hair past my chin. :3 BELIEVE IN ME! I believe in myself. So I declare today DAY ONE of OPERATION GROW HAIR LONG FOR L.O.L. <3 Friday December 21, 2012 11:31am

Day 1: Operation Grow Hair Long for L.O.L. <3

The Last Something That Meant Anything

Well, I'm tired. Not physically, no, I'm wide awake. I'm just tired of loving life. I still do, I know I'll never stop loving my life no matter what, but it tires me out sometimes. Like unwillingly pulling all-nighters. Seeing my best friend and being so happy then seeing the one I used to call my best friend and wishing them nothing more then the misery they recently brought into my life. I used to love her so much, and now....I feel like I don't care about her at all. Like her presence has no more meaning in my life. Now all she is, is my best friend's girlfriend. I mean, I don't hate or dislike her at all, she just means nothing to me personally. I've lost all feeling towards her. I'm just confused on how life works. She lies and breaks her promise to me and yet she ended up in a happy, loving relationship with the possible love of her life. I don't break my promise, I'm the one left heart-broken and I end up lonely in a house full of disapproval and anger. She ends up six hours away at college and her boyfriend says he'll do a long distance relationship and they stay together happy and in love. I'm stuck in this house where I feel no love, no care, trapped. Alone, so lonely. All by myself, everyone in this house wants me to fail, expects me to fail, express their feelings to me of how I'm not good enough. And I have no one here for me. Why? How does that work? She lies and breaks promises and ends  up happy. I get hurt and end up lonely and miserable. I love life, but yeah, sometimes it just exhausts me.

"She's got broken things where her heart should be and I keep rolling it over in my head. If your heart is true then I'll be with you, cause it's you that I adore. And we both know I loved you more." -You're Dead Wrong, Mayday Parade

Early morning

I haven't slept all night. At this point people are waking up to go to early morning jobs and such. Haha, wow. I got no sleep at all, pulled an all-nighter unwillingly. I couldn't sleep. I just couldn't. Oh well

Loving life is not a two way street

You know what I feel? I love life but it seems that the more I love life the more it tries to f**k me over. I love you life, please love me back. I do the best I can, I promise. I love everyone, I try to get along with everyone, I hug everyone every day, I take care of my mother and those who need my help, I'm almost happy ALL THE TIME. I don't see why you feel the need to try and f**k with my lovely life. Oh well, I guess it's just what you do. C'est la vie, such is life. Doesn't stop the fact that you are cruel. But I love you anyway, life, I truly do.

C'est La Vie

Such is life.

So, life is amazing still. My mom had around 85 seizures in just a few days and so she was rushed to the hospital and had surgery. But hopefully now the seizures will be under more control and she should have fewer seizures now.
On another note, officially every sunday afternoon I will be giving my darling Legacy, Nick, gymnastics/tumbling lessons. It's going to be amazing! We had our first lesson yesterday and she did great. It's wonderful that I get to spend time with her weekly now :3 YAY! We're also going to be choreographing dances. I want to do Everything's Okay by Lenka or a cover of Michael Jackson's Thriller done by Imogen Heap, it's beautiful. I also like Ramalama Bang Bang by Rosin Murphy, Perfect by Hedley, and How it Ends by DeVotchka. I'm not picky in what songs we choreograph, they'll all be amazing. We've already got the beginning of Threatened by Michael Jackson choreographed. I also need help in finishing a choreography I was doing on my own to Welcome to Burlesque by Cher. IT'LL BE SO MUCH FUN!

So Many Packages it Feels Like Christmas

Today I got three deliveries.
First I got my Herbalife inventory! Three huge packages of products to sell to people who want to be healthy and nutritious! I love it!!!! I'm going to clear off my bookshelf and put it there, it'll be great :D
The second was my Henna. I'm so excited! I have two things of body art henna, 9.5g for actual body art and 100g for dying my hair. Puppy agreed to do it and he's dying my hair with the henna tomorrow around 10am. WOO! I'M EXCITED!
The third was my Mayday Parade hoodie!!!!!!!!!!!! It's the red one I wanted really bad. It's soft and beautiful and I love it and it was so worth ordering it!
Now I'm only waiting for one last package to come. It should arrive in the next couple days :3 It's my Mayday Parade shirt and wristbands. I get the shirt and I'm giving Puppy the wristbands (The wristbands are for the songs Oh Well Oh Well and Stay). It'll be great when they arrive

On another note, not such a happy one, my mom was hospitalized today and she might go into surgery on wednesday because of how many seizures she's been having in the past couple days. I have faith she'll be okay but as a daughter I can't help but worry about her.