LET'S DO THIS! YEAH!

I just watched Cirque Du Soleil: World's Away. It was a beautiful movie! I loved it. I can't wait to audition for Cirque Du Soleil. Of course, I have to be way better than I am now. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm quite the contortionist, but I need more. I need to train more, be more consistent. And I need to learn other skills other than just contortion. I've done both dance and gymnastic with my contortion but I wonder what else I could add. I want to learn Ariel skills, to do acrobatics would be great! Especially if I could do acrobatic contortion on silks. That would be beyond amazing and would capture my dreams in a heartbeat. Oh, I love circus arts, it's so beautiful. Especially Cirque Du Soleil, they have a way to make everything majestic and gorgeous. I adore everything Cirque Du Soleil. Unfortunately all I've seen is three of their Vegas shows -Ka, Mystere, and Cris Angel: Believe. Oh, and their movie that I saw today. I want to see more, but most of all, I want to be in them. I know I can't audition for them until I'm 25, so that gives me a good 6 years to train and learn new skills and arts. Be ready for me Cirque Du Soleil, 6 years from now, I'll be so good you'll have to take me.

Contortion Art

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited! I got the most wonderful news today! I am a contortionist and I found something called contortion art. Its where contortionists do photoshoots in their contortion poses and such with beautiful backgrounds. I have a wonderful friend named Cara and she is an amazing photographer. I asked her if she would be willing to do a contortion art photoshoot with me. SHE SAID YES! YAY! She just ordered a new camera so as soon as she gets it, we're going to do the shoot. Then when she posts them, I'll re-post them here for everyone who reads this to see (which is no one, haha). She should be getting her new camera in the next month or two, so it'll be around then. Sorry it's not sooner. Anyways, this is great news and it makes me very happy. :D :D :D :D

No One Would Expect A Murderous Penguin in Colorado

I don't really have anything to write...........sorry

Like I Promised

Okay, I promised in the last post that I would post the pictures from when I curled my hair, I also promised to post the pictures of my haircut since I gave up on growing out my hair. So here they are:

CURLY HAIR & PIXIE CUT!

 

Yeah, No, I Give Up

Okay, so Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. is officially over. I'm super annoyed with my hair, I don't even like my hair long, not ever a good cause like Locks of Love can get me to grow my hair out. I love my hair short. So, I'm not growing it out. It's in my face and my boss at work keeps getting mad at me for having my hair in my face. So yeah, I'm done. I'm pleasantly surprised I even made it this long. YAY! Anyways, here are some photos from Florida. I'll post the pictures of when I curled my hair on the next post, I'll also post pictures of my hair after  cut my hair as well, whenever that will be. <3

 Kelly & Me at the Airport

 Me right before we left for universal studios

 Me, my first time in an airport about to go on my first plane

 Spark -Kelly's Dog

Stormy -Kelly's Cat

Love

Love. Haha. I'm such a hopeless romantic. I dream of falling in love. Meeting the man of my dreams, going on adventures and loving each other. One day getting married for eternity. Raising a family, loving my children and husband more than anything else on this earth. It's stupid of me to dream about it. I'm so young, only 18. I have so much time, I shouldn't be thinking about love and marriage and whatnot. But...I get so lonely. I have trouble being on my own in general, I can't be left alone in a house without going crazy. So...night is so hard. I feel so alone, so so so so alone every night. It drives me crazy. And I try to convince myself I'm not alone, I really do but it's impossible.
Every day I wake up, I'm happy, I go throughout my day seeing people, spending my day with my best friend forever. I spend every minute with someone else during the day, showing myself that I'm not alone because I have all those people. My friends, coworkers, all those people who love me so much and who would do anything for me. I know Puppy would do anything to make sure I'm okay and that I'm happy. He truly is the greatest friend I've ever had. No one has truly cared for me like George has. No one. I see all the love I receive during the day but it proves nothing to me. I'm still alone. How can I say this? Because the day ends. The sun goes down and those people go home and so do I. And I end up where I am, sitting all alone by myself in an empty room. I can try to prove that I'm not alone all I want during the day but every day ends the same. Sitting all alone. All alone. I am alone. So many people love and care about me and yet I am still alone.
I know it doesn't make sense, but since when do emotions ever care about sense or logic? I don't know. I'm just tired of feeling lonely. I'm tired of spending every night by myself, every night alone, every night miserable. I'm so tired of everything. I have a wonderful life, what is wrong with me? What am I doing wrong? I have a wonderful best friend, I have two jobs that I love doing, I love the people I work with, I love life in general, I love people, I'm the biggest social butterfly, I'm smart and also artsy, I'm following and reaching for my dreams, I'm working hard, I'm loving all those around me, I try to help people, I try to make everyone around me happy. I want everyone to see that they can be happy and how wonderful they really are. No one deserved to feel how I do at night, no one deserves to feel so alone and so miserable. If I'm doing everything right, there's nothing about my life I would change other than my living situation...then why am I not happy?

Anyways, on a completely different topic and a happier note, it's day 23 of Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. It's going really well, I'm still working on my new camera so no pictures yet, sorry. But I have lovely pictures from when I curled my hair that I need to post when I can.

OH! I now have two songs that I want to dance to at my wedding: All About Us -He is We & Never Stop (Wedding Version) -Safetysuit

I LOVE SUPERHEROES!

I love superheroes. So very, very much. My favorite is Batman, I adore him. My favorite villain is The Riddler, and my favorite sidekick is Robin the Boy Wonder (oh how I love Dick Grayson). When I first starting reading the Batman comics, I fell in love with Dick Grayson and eventually went on to own the complete storyline of Batman and Robin the Boy Wonder <3 Then I somehow started collecting the new #52 Batman comics in 2012, sadly I only have comics #1-7 and #0. Anyways, my love for Robin only increased when he became Nightwing. Nightwing is one of my favorite superheroes (mainly because he was Robin). Well last night I received the most amazing gift from my best friend for all eternity, Puppy. He gave me a Nightwing necklace. It's just a necklace with a hand-crafted (not by puppy, he ordered it online) blue Nightwing Symbol. It's AMAZING! I love it sooooooooooooo much. It makes me very happy:3 I wore it today with my Captain America shirt and my Batman jacket (when zipped all the way up it's the entire
Batman outfit minus the cape. The hood zips all the way up to make the mask, it's aweseme). I almost wore my Batman cape as well, but I decided against it in the end. In all honesty, my outfit would've been better if I had worn my Batgirl shirt, then it would've been all from the same comic. All I need to do is buy those Batman&Robin converse shoes I've had my eyes on....maybe soon. Anyways, I love Nightwing and I love my new Nightwing necklace <3 <3 <3

I'M BACK!

Well, I have returned safely from Florida. In all honesty, I did not particularly enjoy the trip. Oh well, I did enjoy going to Universal Studios for two days and also the day we went to Clearwater Beach and Pier 60. Other than that it really was kinda boring (and Kelly treats me like a 4 year old child who can't take care of herself so I spent most of the day being talked down, scolded, insulted and such). Florida has wonderful weather though, not too humid either since it's winter.
Anyways, I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad to be back!!! I missed my home here in Utah. I missed my job (I love work <3 so very much), I missed my Puppy (talking about my best friend George), I missed my mom and my brothers (including my non-blood brothers), and I missed my little half chihuahua half pug (his name is Snickers and I love him). It's wonderful to be back where it's cold, as well. I love how cold it gets here in the winter, I enjoy the cold. It'll be great to get back to work. I got home last night and I work tonight :3 How fantastic! Oh, I'll probably post pictures of my trip (there's not a lot because Kelly wouldn't let me take pictures because she said it made me look like an annoying, in the way tourist) when I figure out how to connect my new camera to my computer....I'm still working that out. Haha. Oh well.
So today would be..................Day 15 of Operation: G.H.L.F.L.O.L. YAY! I will also post a photo for that when I figure the whole camera thing out.