Well, I'm tired. Not physically, no, I'm wide awake. I'm just tired of loving life. I still do, I know I'll never stop loving my life no matter what, but it tires me out sometimes. Like unwillingly pulling all-nighters. Seeing my best friend and being so happy then seeing the one I used to call my best friend and wishing them nothing more then the misery they recently brought into my life. I used to love her so much, and now....I feel like I don't care about her at all. Like her presence has no more meaning in my life. Now all she is, is my best friend's girlfriend. I mean, I don't hate or dislike her at all, she just means nothing to me personally. I've lost all feeling towards her. I'm just confused on how life works. She lies and breaks her promise to me and yet she ended up in a happy, loving relationship with the possible love of her life. I don't break my promise, I'm the one left heart-broken and I end up lonely in a house full of disapproval and anger. She ends up six hours away at college and her boyfriend says he'll do a long distance relationship and they stay together happy and in love. I'm stuck in this house where I feel no love, no care, trapped. Alone, so lonely. All by myself, everyone in this house wants me to fail, expects me to fail, express their feelings to me of how I'm not good enough. And I have no one here for me. Why? How does that work? She lies and breaks promises and ends up happy. I get hurt and end up lonely and miserable. I love life, but yeah, sometimes it just exhausts me.
"She's got broken things where her heart should be and I keep rolling it over in my head. If your heart is true then I'll be with you, cause it's you that I adore. And we both know I loved you more." -You're Dead Wrong, Mayday Parade
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