Happy Day! Happy Day!

Oh joy! Puppy is the greatest person to ever walk this earth! We were at work last night and he let me leave early to go see a play. Not just any play, though. I know somewhere on this blog I have a post about a girl named Nick. Nick is my legacy, she is exactly like me and I love her to death. I haven't seen this girl in months and I missed her SO much and I love her SO much. Now she's super talented and even though she's a sophomore she got a role in the play her school (my old high school) was putting on. It was her last night so it was the only night I could go see it and I was stuck at work. I was sad. But Puppy swooped in and saved the day like a superhero! THANK YOU, PUPPY! I love him so much, he's the best friend anyone could ever ask for! Anyways, I got to go see her play (It was called Harvey and it was fantastic).

 Above: Nick Below: Mckenna & Destry

Well, I love life. Life is good. Not only did I get to see Nick perform, Mckenna (My Angel) was also in it and I got to see them both after. We all almost cried (Mckenna did) when we saw each other. We missed each other so much. Everyone was excited that I came, not just those two. I graduated last school year and I  knew every single student that went to  the school and was friends with all of them. So when I came to the performance they were all very excited to see me :3 It made me happy. I love them all. I also got to see Destry (My Destry-Danish <3) but not at the play, just at the school when I came to pick my little brother up. She has been doing well. I'm so proud of the progress all three of those girls are making, they mean a lot to me. I love them so much.

I WANT IT

I. Want. It. So. Bad.

My Creative Muse is Back! HUZZAH!

Well, my creative muse is back without a doubt. I wrote two songs, neither one is named yet. They're both love songs, one is happy and the other not so much. The first is about everything I want in my future relationship, the man I marry one day. It's about being in love with that person and never having to spend another night alone. The other is about love that's tearing two people apart. One keeps holding on too tight while the other wants to break free but won't because they're in love. The love is killing them but they won't let it go. I like them both :3 It makes me happy that I have my inspiration for writing back. Not only that, but almost all my creativeness is back. I drew a new tattoo design on my leg, it's a stem that starts smooth with swirls and leaves starting at my ankle, the stem swirls and waves all the way up my leg, by the time it's halfway up my calf it gets rough with thorns and leaves but no more swirls and at the top is a rose right below my knee. Oh, it's beautiful. I used black for the stem, green for the leaves, blue for the swirls, and magenta/red for the rose. It was great. Then on paper I drew a black and white detailed picture of a human heart. It turned out quite great and I'm very proud of it <3 YAY! My creative muse is back and I'm on a creative spree. My favorite band is Mayday Parade and one of their symbols or logos or whatever is a broken heart, a specific broken heart. Well, I embroidered the broken heart symbol with bright red thread onto my purple shirt. It looks awesome. I'm wearing it right now. It makes me smile. I'm probably going to embroider the symbol onto other clothing too, like jean pockets and such. It'll look cool and if people ask it'll give me a chance to tell people about the most amazing band EVER! LOVE!
Anyways, life is still good. I got to see Puppy and Trent today. I went over to Puppy's house and they were playing video games. We ended up watching the TV show The Walking Dead. It's a cool show, we're on season 3 now. Super awesome and addictive.

Oh Life Will Be Life and I've Learned to Enjoy It

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Life is good to me, I mean, life is life and always does what life does, but I've learned to enjoy what life decides to throw at me. I've started wanting to write again! I love to write song lyrics. My friend Abi and I started a "band" I guess you could call it, but it's not really. It's my love of writing songs and her love of the guitar, piano and composing. So every time I write lyrics she would write music for it on either the piano or guitar. It will be harder now that she's six hours away and swamped with college all the time. But still, I want to write songs. The last song I wrote was titled 'Helpless' and is about how I feel whenever I'm left alone in a house, also how I feel  at night when I'm alone in my room and can't sleep (I have severe insomnia). I really enjoy writing a lot, I love to write songs.
It's also why my music that I listen to is heavily influenced on lyrics. I don't really listen to songs unless I feel like they have meaningful lyrics. Which is why I love Mayday Parade! They have amazing vocals, music, and heartfelt lyrics!!! OH I LOVE THEM! And they were absolutely mind-blowing wonderful live!!!! I can die happy now that I've seen them live.
Anyways, life is good. I haven't really talked to pretty boy since he, puppy, and I went to breakfast not too long ago. I want to talk to him but I get all flustered. Oh well, I will eventually. I can do it!
I think I'm going to go back to writing music, I just need more inspiration, I guess. I wrote my last two songs in Jun e 2012, five months ago. One was for a boy I was hopelessly in love with and the other was Helpless. I guess I never found enough inspiration after that. I've tried to write songs since then, only three attempts, but I never got far and ended up throwing all three away. Sigh. But I don't worry, I'll find inspiration, I always do. Since 2008, I've only written 13 songs: 1 in 2008, 1 in December 2011, 1 in June 2011, 3 in July 2011, 4 in August 2011, 1 in October 2011, 2 in June 2012. Haha, apparently I had a lot of inspiration from July-August 2011. Oh well, it'll return, it will. I just know it :3

LIFE IS GRAND!

I like words that people don't use often, half the time these words aren't actual words either. Like fantabulous and confuzzled. Things like that. I also enjoy saying grand, swell, smashing, snazzy and all that jazz. There are so many wonderful words out there and I love them all.
Oh and my boy troubles are solves (not really, I'm just saying that). I met a boy a year and a half ago at work. He was quitting when I started working so I only worked with him for two days. Anywho, this guy is awesome. I've been semi-in love with him since I met him. Since things with Trent are confusing and I don't really want anything at ALL to happen with Matt, I think I'm just going to go after this other guy -the man of my dreams (lol). I call him Pretty Boy. He's great <3
Also, I'm going to see my favorite band in concert this saturday!!!!! WWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I love and adore you Mayday Parade! I can't wait to see you and listen to your gorgeous music live!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Wow, life moves fast

Well, yeah, wow.
So what's happened since the last time I posted? Well, let's start from what I talked about in my last post and see what's changed. I'm still out making friends and loving life, everything, and everyone. I still spend almost every day with puppy because he's still my BMFFE. We've been trying to get together and do yoga/stretching in the mornings. We're getting there. It's fun :3 I enjoy spending time with puppy, it's precious.
Work is still going great! I love my job very much. Only a couple days ago one of my great friends, Kylie, got hired at my work!!!! I got to train her on Friday  It was awesome! Then today I got to train the other new girl, she's gorgeous, her name is Emily.  Also on the subject of work, I also became an independent distributor for a nutrition company called Herbalife. It's amazing! I've been doing Herbalife for over a year and a half and it has done sooooooooooo much to help me! But it wasn't until last week that I became a distributor and can now sell the amazing products. I'm excited for that! I can't wait to help others like it has helped me :3
Oh! I'm still continuing my contortion training but now I've realized I have a lot more time. I recently found out I can't audition for the circus I want to be in (it's my goal, my dream to be in this circus) till I'm 25. That gives me 6 1/2 years to train for it! I'll be so good by then they'll have to hire me!!!!!
My new friend that I mentioned? C.K. or Celestial. I haven't talked to her in weeks. Our friendship seems to have dropped off the face of the planet. ....I'm okay with this. C.K. was awesome and we got along really well, but I've always had this 'people are replaceable' mindset. If I loose one friend I can always make another. Besides, we weren't like friends for years or anything, only a couple months. So it's not a tragedy.
Speaking of failing friendships. The boy C.K. introduced me to, Casey, that didn't work out. We hung out outside of work just the two of us often. He was charming and funny and fun. I really enjoyed being around him and I liked him a lot. Alas, physicality can ruin anything. We more or less were a mild form of friends with benefits. We never gave ourselves time to just be normal friends first. So when I said we need to make a decision because I don't do the whole friends with benefits thing, he said the wisest decision would be to just be friends. Though it was not the decision I wanted, if he wasn't willing to fight for me then whatever, people are replaceable. So we decided to just be friends. Well, we haven't really talked to each other or seen each other since that day we decided that. Why? Because we didn't have a friendship to go back to or to start with. Oh well, not a bog loss. Soon afterwards I started going on more dates with Trent. Trent asked me out a year ago and then asked me out again recently. We were never a couple or anything, we went on one simple date last year. Now we've gone on a few dates and I really like him. But I am human and I make mistakes. Like the fact that I recently met a boy named Matt. Now Matt and I have been hanging out a bunch, and I know Matt likes me, a lot. I would choose Trent in a heartbeat but I don't know. Mainly because Trent is so innocent in certain ways, like he's never had a girlfriend or kissed a girl. I don't want to be Trent's first date, first girlfriend, first kiss, and then his first regret in a relationship. I don't want to be that girl. But I really like Trent at the same time. Ugh, I thought boy troubles would end when high school did. But nope, they just get worse.
Anywho! Even with all that, life is absolutely fantastic! And I'm loving every second of it :3